Something HAS to be done

After a week of one disaster after another (car dying, glasses frames broken, reduction in Child Support) the mess in the apartment is too much. I need something better than FlyLady. I cannot stand all the freaking emails. It worked for me for awhile until she started with all the "testimonals" (a/k/a "commercials") for her products. And it felt like I was constantly picking up; and I only had the 2 kids then. My main problem as my Dearest has pointed out: my irregular sleep schedule. SO. I decided to create ONE new habit for the next 21 days: go to bed at 11pm and wake up at 7am no matter what day of the week or if it's a James week or not. (Incidently this is his last week of school, and it's a Daddy week). I even set the alarm on my Palm to remind me to go to bed. And then: BABYKINS. Cry cry cry, fuss fuss fuss. Cry and fuss, fuss and cry. Cruss and Fye. So here it is, almost 1 am and I'm still up. Farming. Reading other blogs. Procrastinating going to bed. And now I'm peckish and keep thinking about the pita bread and hummus I bought today....

Amazon Associates

I just signed on to the Amazon Associates program, not to make money but because I love "shopping" there. I read a lot. Or I used to. My mom got me the 12th book in the Wheel of Time series "The Gathering Storm" which I'm thinking about starting. It's a thick book and I want to make sure I can read it without a huge gap. Also, it was the last Christmas gift my mom will ever give me. I wish I had known it would be her last Christmas. We never think of those things as they are happening. I also would hate to die unexpectedly without having ever read it. My mom had checked out about 5 books the day before she died. She was an avid reader too. We like many of the same authors: Jonathon Kellerman, Robert B. Parker, Jesse Kellerman just to name a few.

Water is wet says Cardinal; everyone outraged

Cardinal Marc Ouellet, Archbishop of Quebec, reiterated the Church's teaching that abortion is a moral evil, and wrong in all cases. Everyone got their knickers in a twist. I don't understand why this is a controversy. Everyone knows that the Catholic Church teaches that abortion is always wrong and a grave sin. Are they upset that His Excellency actually spoke about morals in public? (That would be my guess). Read more here, and here.

Let Us Labor to Save Our Souls

An excerpt from St Alphonsus de Liguori's (1696-1787) book entitled "Preparation for Death" published in 1758 at the age of 62

 My brother, in this picture of death behold yourself and what you must one day become. "Remember that dust thou art, and unto dust thou shalt return". Consider that in a few years, and perhaps in a few months or days, you will become rottenness  and worms. By this thought Job became a saint. I have said to rottenness: Thou art my father: to worms, my mother, and my sister (Job 17:14).
All must end; and if, after death, you lose your soul all will be lost for you. Consider yourself already dead, says St. Laurence Justinian, since you know that you must necessarily die. If you were already dead, what would not desire to have done? Now that you have life, reflect that you will one day be among the dead. St Bonaventure says, that, to guide the vessel safely, the pilot must remain at the helm; and in like manner, to lead a good life, a man should always imagine himself at the hour of death. Says St Bernard, "Look to the sins of your youth, and be covered with shame". "Remember the sins of manhood and weep." Look to the present disorders of your life; tremble, and hasten to apply a remedy.
When St Camillus de Lellis saw the graves of the dead, he said within himself: If these return to life, what would they not do for eternal glory? And what do I do for my soul, who have time? This the saint said through humility. But my brother, you, perhaps, have reasons to fear that your are the fruitless fig-tree of which the Lord said: Behold, for these three years I come seeking fruit on this fig-tree, and I find none" (Luke 13:7) You have been in this world for more than three years; what fruit have you produced? Remember, says St Bernard, that the Lord seeks not only flowers, but fruits; that is not only good desires and resolutions, but also holy works. Learn then to profit of the time which God in His mercy gives you; do not wait until you desire time to do good, when time shall be no more. Do not wait till you are told, Time shall be no longer; depart; the time for leaving this world has arrived; what is done, is done.

Are you prepared?

Where will you be, dear Christian, when the debt you owe is due? Will death find you ready, strengthened by the Sacraments? Or will it catch you unawares? If you knew you only have a few hours left on this earth, what would you do with them? This question came to me in the most personal and horrible ways. My mother, my poor dear mother, spent her last few hours on earth playing games on Pogo.com. Working on getting my badge since she had already completed her own. She was in severe pain and had actually gone to the doctor's office because of it. He gave her some Motrin and told her to go to the ER if it got worse after giving her an EKG and determining she wasn't having a heart attack. Until the very last minute, she was in the computer room, my old bedroom, playing a game, while my dad sat alone in the kitchen, waiting for her to come out for dinner. They never did have dinner that night. As she emerged from the computer room, he knew straight away she was not well. He had seen that look before: the day his own mother died (which was Mother's Day. Thankfully the whole family was there so at least she spent her last few hours with family). The thought of my mother all alone, trying to ignore her immense pain, breaks my heart and the pain is unbearable.

If my mother was told she only have a few hours to live, would she have spent them playing Pogo? Maybe. Why not? She enjoyed those games but deep down I suspect she would have at least spent them with my dad and me and my children. She would have said her good-byes and made sure we knew everything. Since this didn't happen, my dad and I were are lost. Shocked and struck with grief, we hadn't a clue what to do. It was the sort of thing my mom took care of. (Thankfully my mother's brother and sister-in-law stepped in and helped).  I'm trying to remember the last time I saw her. And if I told her I loved or at least thanked her for the kind act she was providing me at the time, which shamefully I cannot recall what it was.

How will you have spent the last few precious moments of your life? St. James says our life is "a vapour which appeareth for a little while and afterwards shall vanish away." (James 4:15)  We all die, and like waters that return no more, we fall down into the earth (2 Samuel 14:14). St Alphonsus tells us that "there is nothing more precious than time; but there is nothing less esteemed and more despised by men of the world". This is what St Bernard deplores when he says "Nothing is is more precious than time, but nothing is regarded more cheaply. The days of salvation pass away, and no one reflects that day which has passed away from him can never return". Think of all those moments where we were just "killing time". It is gone, never to return. The hours you've killed will return to haunt you on your deathbed (if you should be so lucky).

Empire State Building honors Commies but not Saints (or Blesseds)

Bill Donahue petitioned the Empire State Building to light the building with blue and white in honor of her 100th birthday which is being commemorated by the US Postal Service by issuing a stamp featuring her. (see here and here). They refused. Without offering any explanation. Why? They honored some Chinese Communist who was responsible for the deaths of millions and 60 years of oppression of an entire nation. Sign the petition to support Bl. Mother Teresa.

My first question is why the hell would they honor a Communist Dictator to begin with. Fox News is the only news website that I could find that is covering this story. (not including independent blogs) What story? There's no story here. At least not according to the ESB spokesperson. Jeffrey Scott Shapiro did a little digging, as journalists are supposed to do. Some of his expericences:

This morning I called the Empire State building so they could explain why they decided to honor a communist state responsible for causing the death of millions of their own people, but not a Catholic nun who won the Nobel Peace Prize who spent 45 years saving lives. After all, at the time of her death, Mother Teresa’s charity was operating 610 missions in 123 countries.
Although I called several times, I could not reach Melanie Maasch, Director of Brand Development and Public Relations, but I did receive a call from Daniel Hernandez, a public relations representative working for an outside firm hired by the Empire State Building. Mr. Hernandez insisted that “there is no issue here,” and told me that his firm had been directed not to “comment on anything involving this story.”
I told Mr. Hernandez I disagreed with him that there was no issue here, and that in a free society like the United States it was the free press that decides whether or not there is an issue or a story to be written, not public relations officers.

“Obviously it’s an issue or I wouldn’t be calling you,” I told him during a telephone interview this morning.
“Who decides when to illuminate the building?”
“There’s a committee.”
“Who’s on that committee and how many people are on it?”
“I can’t tell you that.”
“Why? I’m just asking a general question about how the Empire State Building works.”
“I know, but you’re asking in relation to this story, the story about the lights, and as I told you, we’re not commenting on that story because we don’t feel there’s any issue here.”
“Don’t you think that’s kind of ironic?
“What do you mean?
“Well, you won’t respond to the free press about a story that accuses your organization of honoring a dictatorship. I mean, I kind of feel like I’m dealing with a dictatorship now. You’re telling me – a journalist – there’s no story as if you can dictate the news to the press and then you refuse to tell me anything as if you’re above explaining it.”
“I’m only telling you what I’ve been directed to say.”
“But there has to be an answer, there has to be a reason for all of this. Why can’t you just tell me and justify the committee’s position?”
“I’m only telling you what I’ve been directed to say.”
When Mr. Hernandez finally hung up, I stared dumbfounded at my BlackBerry Storm and wondered if I’d just lost contact with a spokesman for the Empire State Building management committee or the People’s Republic of China’s Central Committee. (read the full piece here).

 This is what I mean when I say we are heading to Hell in a Handbasket.

Who would YOU honor?

On Being A Christian

I went to Mass today and the First reading was from the Acts of the Apostles, where, at Antioch they were first called "Christians". (Acts 11:19-26). And Father's sermon was about what it meant exactly to be a Christian. And he brought up a pet peeve of mine when I hear a Catholic say "I'm not Christian, I'm Catholic". I always want to do a facepalm at that. But the point that most struck me is how Christianity is not a "closed" group. We want everyone to be a Christian! We want everyone to share in the Joy of following Jesus Christ. We want everyone to go to Heaven. It made me think more about spreading the "Good News" rather than the sourpuss, exclusive, us vs them (you know, sinners) attitude that I myself have found myself harboring.

 John answered him, saying: Master, we saw one casting out devils in thy name, who followeth not us: and we forbade him.  But Jesus said: Do not forbid him. For there is no man that doth a miracle in my name and can soon speak ill of me.  For he that is not against you is for you. Mark 9:38-40 DRV

And he said to them: Go ye into the whole world and preach the gospel to every creature. He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved: but he that believeth not shall he condemned. Mark 16:15-16 DRV

frustration

Trying to set up my blog dedicated the to Holy Souls in Purgatory but nothing seems to be going right. I can't come up with a title; I don't care for the templates that are available. They're too "jaunty" or so dark you cant read the text.. Argh. More rants to come. Had an idea.

New Blogs

I'm creating two new blogs dedicated to one cause each. First "The Rosary Blog" the other is dedicated to the Holy Souls. I may transfer a lot of the info I have on this blog to that one. I was sitting here thinking(!) and realized that the Rosary needs it's own page too. This might be a long, tedious process but I like tedious as long as there is something good out of it!     

"Help the Holy Souls"

I'm adding some pages I call "Help the Holy Souls". These are prayers, or pictures or instructions on how to help the Suffering Souls in Purgatory. I've always felt a devotion to them but lately I feel an urgent need to spread the word about  them and to help them as much as possible lately; most likely because of my mom dying. My mom wasn't Catholic or religious at all really; but I pray with confidence she will enter into the Glory of Heaven if only I pray long and hard enough and for ALL the Holy Souls.

UK Officials Mock Pope in Memo

I came acrosss this piece via Spiritdaily. As if we need even more reasons to Pray for the Holy Father. My comments are in green, bolds are mine as usual and I'm probably not going to quote the whole thing anyway. Read the full article here.

The astonishing proposals, leaked to The Sunday Telegraph, were contained in secret papers drawn up earlier this month by civil servants following a 'brainstorm’.
The ideas, included in a memo headed 'The ideal visit would see ...’, ridiculed the Catholic Church’s teachings including its opposition to abortion, homosexual behaviour and contraception. Many appeared to be deliberately provocative rather than a serious attempt to plan an itinerary for the September visit.(Okay, SSDD what else?)

The proposals, which were then circulated among key officials in Downing Street and Whitehall, also include the Pope opening an abortion ward; (sick) spending the night in a council flat in Bradford; ( I don't think this would phase the Pope one bit actually) doing forward rolls with children to promote healthy living; and even performing a duet with the Queen.(that might actually be cool. Pope Benedict is an excellent pianist.)

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Recipients of the memo were furious at its content and an investigation was launched. One senior official was found responsible and has been transferred to other duties.  ( Nobody, I mean NOBODY ever gets sacked in the UK unless it's some poor working class person who only made an honest mistake, like, dropping a tenner and getting a fine for 50 quid.)

“The individual responsible has been transferred to other duties. He has been told orally and in writing that this was a serious error of judgement and has accepted this view. (oooooh, that will learn him!)

A Foreign Office spokesman said: “This is clearly a foolish document that does not in any way reflect UK Government or Foreign Office policy or views. Many of the ideas in the document are clearly ill-judged, naive and disrespectful. (Well, it's certainly the views of someone in the UK gov't and Foreign Office, otherwise it wouldn't have been written!)

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There is understood to be increasing unease at the Vatican over the level of hostility that the Pope is likely to face in Britain, with protests and even threats of arrest from secularists. The disclosure of the secret proposals is bound to deepen concerns and cause dismay among the country’s four million Catholics.(Gee, ya think?)

Prayer for Pope Bendict XVI

Lord, source of eternal life and truth, give to your shepherd, Benedict, a spirit of courage and right judgment, a spirit of knowledge and love. By governing with fidelity those entrusted to his care, may he, as successor to the Apostle Peter and Vicar of Christ, build your Church into a sacrament of unity, love and peace for all the world. Amen.

V. Let us pray for Benedict, the pope.
R. May the Lord preserve him, give him a long life, make him blessed upon the earth, and not hand him over to the power of his enemies.
V. May your hand be upon your holy servant.
R. And upon your son, whom you have anointed.

Patriots

I was going to write something in here yesterday about something political.. oh I remember! The Southern Poverty Law Center had "identified" 40 "patriots" who they think some "patriots" should be "watched". First off: their definition of "patriot" is: "people who generally believe that the federal government is an evil entity that is engaged in a secret conspiracy to impose martial law, herd those who resist into concentration camps, and force the United States into a socialistic 'New World Order.'"  The SPLC also considers "traditional Catholicism" as at "hate group" including, but not limited to the Fatima Crusade and Catholic Family News, and The Remnant! **insert eyeroll here*

Glenn Beck tops the list, natch. WND's Joseph Farah also makes the list and has this to say:

WND Editor Joseph Farah is described as "a leading fomenter [sic] of the baseless claim that President Obama was not born in Hawaii, but in Africa, and so is not qualified to be president." It also says he could not be reached for comment.
"Could not be reached for comment?" asked Farah in a response column. "Let me state unequivocally and for the record, the gutless, little cowards at the Southern Poverty Law Center with their $300 million annual budget never had the courage to call me, leave a message or send an e-mail! I would have been amused to answer the accusations of [SPLC Founder Morris] Dees or one of his little minions. Anyone who knows me understands how much I like to mix it up with those who disagree with me. Could not be reached for comment, indeed. Larceny and cowardice are the trademarks of Dees and company.

The full list of these eeeeeeeeeeeevil patriots can be found here For some reason I didn't make the list. Oh well.

Stuff

My dad has the daunting task of , eventually clearing out my mother's earthly possessions. The day before she died she had gone shopping and my dad gave me some of the food in the fridge because he wasn't going to eat it. He gave me some other stuff too that was what my mom would consume. I saw 5 bottles of Tonic Water in the cupboard; they were probably on sale and she stocked up. This made me think of all the things I "save" so I don't run out. Like lotion or shampoo or toothpaste. I'll never finish that last bit up "just in case" In case of what? I don't know. but my mom never got a chance to finish reading her book or to make a sandwich wrap.
So, what does this mean? I decided to use up things instead of having them laying around. This doesn't mean I'm going to be wasteful but, if I bought it, I'll use it. I'm especially bad at saving make-up. I have tons and tons of make-up, 1/2 full 1/3 full, unopened, or a microscopic amount.

Random Thoughts and Musings Part 1

Laying in bed for over an hour and couldn't get anywhere near sleep. I had a lot of thoughts and themes going through my head and thought I would bless you all (!) with them. The first subject is about time. *WARNING: THESE MAY BE RAMBLING AND DISJOINTED AND MAY NOT MAKE MUCH SENSE IN THE LONG RUN*

TIME

"Time is fleeting" Thus begins the iconic "Time Warp" from Rocky Horror Picture Show. A pithy saying that, for someone my age really has lost any meaning. We never think of those lost minutes, hours, days, weeks and years that slip by so stealthily. What I wouldn't give to have another 5 minutes with my mother, to hug her and tell her how much I love her and that she was a good mom and to apologize for all the shit I put her through. What would I do if I could have a whole day or week? I'd make sure I'd get her recipe for potato salad and ask her important questions about finances and get her family history and make every second count.
I am a master at wasting time. If I'm not wasting it on teh interwebs then I'm wasting it sleeping when I should be doing something constructive and meaningful: spending as much time with my children as possible, keeping a tidy and organized home, giving my children instructions that they will need to be productive (unlike me), and appreciating all that the love of my life, my finance, does for me and how much he loves me and try, at least in part, to return some of that back to him; to give God the due Worship He deserves and to thank Him for giving me this very second in which to tell Him I love him and of my gratitude. God doesn't owe us the next minute or even the next second. Every moment is a gift from Him. He has given it to us to do with it what we will, with our own free will. Once it's gone, it's gone forever, and we can never get that moment back. Our days are so full of things that, in the end, don't really matter. Which, sort of leads me to the subject of "stuff".

So much crap

There is so much negative garbage in the news today, I haven't the mental energy to deal with it all. My mother's Memorial Service is on Saturday. Yesterday I spent 4 hours with my aunt and uncle looking at old photos and videos. I was in a fairly good mood until I went to lay down for bed and the enormity of the loss hit me like a truck. And since then I've been in a funk and down in the depths of sadness, missing my mother terribly. My only consolation is prayer, for thanks be to God I'm not in a state of dryness and confusion. I've been praying the Rosary and Divine Mercy Chaplet for the repose of her soul. I've been reading good religious books. I've remained in a state of grace in order to do these things. But on the flip-side, this alienates my Jewish finance and he's pulling away -emotionally and physically- from me at the one time I need him the most.

Spiritual Bouquet for Pope Benedict XVI

The Institute of Christ the King Sovereign Priest is preparing to send a spiritual bouquet to His Holiness, Pope Benedict XVI. Via an online form, the faithful may contribute to this bouquet, along with others throughout the world, which will be presented directly to His Holiness.

All are invited to contribute Holy Masses, Rosaries, novenas, Holy Hours, or works of charity for our Holy Father at a time in which he is being unjustly attacked.

The Institute is especially encouraging prayers and sacrifices during a special Novena (PDF) beginning on Saturday, April 24, the 5th anniversary of the inauguration of Pope Benedict XVI, through May 2, which is the first Sunday of the month of Mary, Mother of the Church.

Spiritual Bouquet Form »

Amid the anti-Catholic sentiment in the media of today, please express your fidelity to the Vicar of Christ on earth in this hour when he is unjustly attacked. Pray for our beloved Holy Father, Pope Benedict XVI, that God may continue to grant him an abundance of spiritual wisdom and strength to guide the Barque of Peter through the difficult waters of our times.

Desiring to show our filial support and gratitude to our Holy Father, the Institute of Christ the King wishes to offer an abundant spiritual bouquet to His Holiness. Your prayers are needed! To participate in this spiritual bouquet, please use our online form below. Simply indicate the number and types of prayers you wish to offer. This spiritual bouquet will then be presented directly to His Holiness.

Novena for the Pope Day 3

PRAYER FOR POPE BENEDICT XVI

Lord, source of eternal life and truth,

give to your shepherd, Benedict, a spirit

of courage and right judgment, a spirit

of knowledge and love. By governing

with fidelity those entrusted to his care,

may he, as successor to the Apostle

Peter and Vicar of Christ, build your

Church into a sacrament of unity, love

and peace for all the world. Amen.

V/ Let us pray for Benedict, the pope.

R/ May the Lord preserve him,

give him a long life,

make him blessed upon the earth,

and not hand him over

to the power of his enemies.

V/ May your hand

be upon your holy servant.

R/ And upon your son,

whom you have anointed.

Our Father… Hail Mary… Glory Be…

St Justin, martyr

via Father Zuhlsdorf:


There is then brought to the president of the brethren bread and a cup of wine mixed with water; and he taking them, gives praise and glory to the Father of the universe, through the name of the Son and of the Holy Ghost, and offers thanks at considerable length for our being counted worthy to receive these things at His hands. And when he has concluded the prayers and thanksgivings, all the people present express their assent by saying Amen. This word Amen answers in the Hebrew language to genoito [so be it]. And when the president has given thanks, and all the people have expressed their assent, those who are called by us deacons give to each of those present to partake of the bread and wine mixed with water over which the thanksgiving was pronounced, and to those who are absent they carry away a portion. And this food is called among us Euxaristia, of which no one is allowed to partake but the man who believes that the things which we teach are true, and who has been washed with the washing that is for the remission of sins, and unto regeneration, and who is so living as Christ has enjoined. For not as common bread and common drink do we receive these; but in like manner as Jesus Christ our Saviour, having been made flesh by the Word of God, had both flesh and blood for our salvation, so likewise have we been taught that the food which is blessed by the prayer of His word, and from which our blood and flesh by transmutation are nourished, is the flesh and blood of that Jesus who was made flesh. For the apostles, in the memoirs composed by them, which are called Gospels, have thus delivered unto us what was enjoined upon them; that Jesus took bread, and when He had given thanks, said, "This do ye in remembrance of Me, this is My body; "and that, after the same manner, having taken the cup and given thanks, He said, "This is My blood; "and gave it to them alone.

First Apology 65-66

Novena for the Pope Day 2

Day 2 of the Novena for the Holy Father!

PRAYER FOR POPE BENEDICT XVI

Lord, source of eternal life and truth,

give to your shepherd, Benedict, a spirit

of courage and right judgment, a spirit

of knowledge and love. By governing

with fidelity those entrusted to his care,

may he, as successor to the Apostle

Peter and Vicar of Christ, build your

Church into a sacrament of unity, love

and peace for all the world. Amen.

V/ Let us pray for Benedict, the pope.

R/ May the Lord preserve him,

give him a long life,

make him blessed upon the earth,

and not hand him over

to the power of his enemies.

V/ May your hand

be upon your holy servant.

R/ And upon your son,

whom you have anointed.

Our Father… Hail Mary… Glory Be…

Novena for the Holy Father

I just found this from the website Catholic Dads about a Novena for the Holy Father:

The Knights of Columbus are encouraging everyone in the Church to pray a novena for the Holy Father starting today, Divine Mercy Sunday, and continuing through December 19th, the anniversary of his election to the Chair of St. Peter.

This novena is especially needed. In reviewing the news articles and the astounding poor quality of the journalism involved, it is safe to say that the ongoing attacks against the Holy Father have nothing to do with with finding justice and truth. The intent is to weaken the Holy Father and the Church; to weaken our faith. The attacks are against us faithful Catholics and our devotion to the Risen Lord and his Church here on earth. (emphasis mine)

I'm glad I'm finding these things. The website for the Novena is here (make sure to watch the video too). I see the novena cards are in the evil PDF format, so I will simply write out the text here. If you can, print these out and give them to your Catholic (and non-Catholic friends).

PRAYER FOR POPE BENEDICT XVI

Lord, source of eternal life and truth,
give to your shepherd, Benedict, a spirit
of courage and right judgment, a spirit
of knowledge and love. By governing
with fidelity those entrusted to his care,
may he, as successor to the Apostle
Peter and Vicar of Christ, build your
Church into a sacrament of unity, love
and peace for all the world. Amen.
V: Let us pray for Benedict, the pope.
R: May the Lord preserve him,
give him a long life,
make him blessed upon the earth,
and not hand him over
to the power of his enemies.
V: May your hand
be upon your holy servant.
R: And upon your son,
whom you have anointed.
Our Father… Hail Mary… Glory Be…
KNIGHTS OF COLUMBUS

In Solidarity With Our Holy Father